It's hurting bad.
So many unanswered questions.
I can only guess.

Maybe it was all a lie.
Maybe it was fake.
No one knows.
No one really knows.

I don't know why.

Cos I'm tired..
Cos I wish to let go..
Cos it's time to stop..
Cos I wanna forget.

I'm fucking stressed. THREE tests on Wednesday - A. Maths, Physics and Chem. WTF. Tomorrow got Physics remedial. WTF. How the fuck do you expect me to study. Stupid teacher with her stupid PMS. Fuck man. "Don't bargain". BARGAIN MY ASS. Fucking shit. CRACKPOT. No time. NO TIME!

Stefanie Sun's Concert!!! (: Photos!!!

The stage. Before she came out.

There she is.

Sparks!

Can't remember singing to what song. Lol.

I think she must be super light.

I like this dance. To the song "Shen Qi" I think.

Many many hands!

I wanna be high up there too.

Sang with F.I.R. !

I love them. And I love Faye's voice!

Yello dress.

I didn't know she could play the piano.

Duet with Tanya. "Yuan Dian".

Encore.

And she leaves.

I think me and Ziya were the most unenthusiastic audience. Cos we got the tickets for free, and also, we seem to be very tired. Haha.. But overall, I think the concert is good. Her voice is damn powerful. (: Yup. And the lyrics of all her songs are all meaningful. I mean those ballads. Yeah.

Anyway, after the concert we were sort of lost. Yeah, so we followed the crowd and ended up at a bus stop. I called my sis and she told me I have no direct bus home. I had to change bus, so yeah, I just board a bus with Ziya. And I realise that it was going towards the wrong direction! So anyway, I alighted and went to the opposite bus stop. Ziya could walk home from where we were soshe went off first. Yup. So I board a bus that came. I wasn't sure where to alight so after like 2 or 3 stops I just got off. And it was so quiet!! Nobody! So scary. Lol. I saw this bus that could go to my house so I happily board the bus. Andddd... I realise it was going to the opposite direction. The one which WILL NOT pass by my house!!!! God, I could have killed myself. Haha.. So I went opposite and took the same bus again. I was so afraid there'll be no more bus service cos it was reaching 12! Lol. Finally, I reached home. After like so many bus rides. =\

Yup. Feeling so tired now. I gotta study tomorrow. Sighs. Stressed.

the only way to stop.

Bored. Sighs. I can't wait for Chinese New Year. I realised that a year pass damn fast. Goodness.

pierced my heart.

The sun. After continuous rain. Sounds great, but I prefer the rain. Sighs.
Got my pay today.. after like a zillion years. Well, at least it reached a hundred. So now I'm a little rich. Haha. Went to some ulu place at Ang Mo Kio industrial park with Ziya to collect the Sun Yanzi's concert tickets. I'm going with her! (: Yup. I've got loads of homework. =\ Sometimes I wish someone can just take me away.

It's strained enough. What I hoped for. Came the total opposite. Messed up. Get all the emotions and mix them well. That's how I'm feeling now. So fucked up. To not know what to do. To not know what's gonna happen next. If only none of this happened.. If only.

i want my old life back.

自欺欺人

女:就算忍
男:守得了秘密还不安心 原谅我
女:不懂得再怎麽扮幸运 原谅我
男:我顾虑成罪人
女:毕竟总有恻隐
男:知感情完了 扮未发生
女:想开口又沈默 想分手又难受 终於都 欺骗你欺骗我感受
男:还道歉 说我会补救
女:怎退後 (男:对你说谎 表演够不够)
女:这次 男:又再骗你一次
女:何不狠心一试
男:太害怕令你变得寂寞 每一次 都装出我好意
女:担心得我一个 呆坐到六时
男:别妄想你都讲过 别懒惰要说清楚
女:看 我们正对峙 懦弱地逃避了事 敷衍都算关注
男:潇洒点结束不等於自私
合:分开方可各自开始
女:不想等是时候 不想拖是时候 真不想 欺骗你欺骗我感受
男:诚实说 我爱你不够
女:想退後 (男:爱到这刻只得责任)
女:不想占有 这次
男:又再骗我一次
女:何不狠心一试
男:太害怕害我变得寂寞 我想试 始终不敢乱试
女:担心得你一个 呆坐到六时
男:别妄想你都讲过 别懒惰要说清楚
女:看 我们正对峙 懦弱地逃避了事 敷衍都算关注
男:潇洒点结束不等於自私 我为何怕事
女:没法拖手 (男:这次) 女:就要挥手
男:这次 我曾发誓对你好 愿做你好友 减低一点内疚
女:真心话 我跟你无谓再逗留
男:别妄想你都讲过 别懒惰 要说清楚
女:既决定了告辞 别冒昧来电救治 请收起你心意
男:潇洒点结束不等於自私
合:不必假装血流不止
女:不要
男:又再诈骗 不要
女:情深款款
合:不要 留下次处置


那些谎言，只有我会信。
你离开了，我希望你不再回来。
这样， 忘记你不会那么痛苦。
我以为你和他们不同。
我错了。
错得可笑。
对我忽冷忽热的态度， 我受够了。

你彻彻底底地伤了我。
算了吧。



我们的爱，差异一直存在。

这有种叫做时间的东西，说没问题，最后我们会痊愈。

The weather's so cold. With the pouring rain and all. Replica of how I feel. Sighs. Both A. Maths and Chemistry test is on the same day next week. Screw it. I'm so fucking stress. Got my locker. Love my combination and it's at the top row. (: Got lots of homework waiting. Maybe I shall do some. Feeling so fucking tired. Sighs.

What can I do to make things better? It's affecting me. Even if I'm not showing it, it is.

You're no different. Not at all.

God, today is NERD day. Bought all my freaking TYS from Popular. Haha.. So heavy.. Carry home. Hmm.. Was late for school. Lol. Man, late for 3 days in a term, in house suspesion for 5 days meaning sit in front of the General Office from 8 to 6. Madness!
Mrs Gan is very cute. Lol. Eccentric science teacher. Haha.. Hmmm.. Nothing much to say. School's tiring. The stress. Ahhh. Kill me.

and i hate you so.